Day 30

I have sort of been dreading this topic, and maybe that's one reason it has taken so long to get here. Since the very first minute I saw this countdown I knew what picture would be added to my blog on this day. The last few months have been enormously crazy for me. I haven't really been able to get on my feet, and get myself together. 


It has taken me 78 days to finish a 30 day countdown, that's just a little ridiculous. Here it is though, the last day of the countdown. I'm finally getting done!


Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss


I've said it many times in my blog, but I'm going to say it one final time. 2011 was the worst year of my life. I never knew I could lose so many people that meant so much to me in one year.


I miss all the ones who have gone on before me, I miss them terribly. The loss I suffered on February 19th of this year was one of the worst ever. 10 months and 10 days later, I still cry from time to time and I probably always will.


I will miss my Aunt Tammy until the Lord takes me home to be with her. I loved her so much, and I still do. Losing her made the biggest impact on my life, and an enormous impact on the lives of my family. 


I know she is in a better place, but these months without her have brought holidays that she should have been here sharing with us. 


I know the Lord doesn't make mistakes. He is perfection, and his plans are perfect so I have to take some comfort in knowing that she is where she is supposed to be. It won't change the emptiness that I feel for her. I will miss her for the rest of my life.

Day 29

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.




Calvin Edward Kelley went home to be with the Lord on July 29, 2011. 


He was an amazing kid who had been through so much in his life. 


He was beyond loved and beyond blessed, he was also a huge blessing to everyone who loved him.


You couldn't catch a Calvin smile often, but when you did it looked like this. 


We will miss you Calvin, forever and ever. We will always have our memories of you and our pictures to share those precious memories with others. 


We love you Cal. We know you are having so much fun "skating with the Angels."

Day 28

Day 28 - A picture of something you’re afraid of.




I am not afraid to die. Guessing that probably sounds a little morbid, but it's true. I know where my soul will be when my heart stops beating.

Even with that though, I don't want to suffer. I know that I can't pick how I go, but I know that I would prefer not to suffer.

I also cherish the things I have. My husband, my children, and our puppy. I also love my belongings, although they don't make up my life my house is full of memories that reside in things from my past, things from my present, and my pictures. To lose any of those things would DEVASTATE me.

I'd say the only thing, other than losing a loved one, that I am afraid of is fire.

Fire destroys lives, it takes lives. It displaces families by taking their homes. It takes away things they need such as their clothing and ways to bathe or eat. I hate fire. I'm not big on bon fires or anything that could potentially create a huge fire.

I do light candles, and I do love them but I am cautious.

I am frightened of fire.

Day 27

Wow, it has taken me weeks and weeks to get back here. I feel so lost right now with everything that's going on. 

I'm supposed to be taking medicine for my thyroid, it was prescribed about 5 years ago. I've been doing a lot better in the last year about taking it, but I knew it was about time to have my blood drawn again so I just didn't call in a refill. I've been without it for about a month now and boy can I tell. 

Lethargic doesn't even begin to describe what I am most days. It seems like the world has been spinning so fast around me yet I've been standing still. I can't wait to pick up my meds and get back on my schedule. I like feeling well, and being productive. I like that I can manage my time well, instead of wanting to sleep all the time. 

Maybe when I get my medicine back in me, I will get my schedule back together and my blog will become a regular occurrence again, instead of just a hit or miss kind of thing. Thanks to all who were patient, and waited on me to get it together. I appreciate that. I also appreciate any comments, or joins. I love making friends. 

So now to continue with my 30 day countdown, that has actually taken me more like two and a half months. LOL 

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

I'm just a little bit proud to be his big sister! 


I love you Bubba!

A quick note

I don't really know if anyone has noticed, but I haven't been here in a while. I have been so busy here lately that's its pretty unbelievable. I feel so run down and ragged right now.

I did want to say however, that I haven't forgotten the ones who do read my stuff and I haven't forgotten my countdown. I just wish it hadn't taken two and a half months for me to finish a 30 day countdown.

Hopefully over the next week or so, I can get caught up since almost all my Christmas shopping and wrapping is done, and I have a four day weekend coming up next weekend. I know that most of that weekend will be filled full of Christmas activities, but I am going to try and get a handle on my time management and try to get my mind and body to feeling better again!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Friday. Talk to you soon!

Day 26

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

This isn't something that means a lot to me.... it's something that means EVERYTHING to me. 

I'm human. I'm a mother. I could never create a child for the sole purpose of saving a nation of sinners. I could not watch my child grow for 30+ years just to watch him go through such torture to save a world of people who half the time don't even accept me.

It's amazing to me that someone could be so selfless to live on Earth for years knowing that his destiny would be to die for the sins of others. I could never be that selfless.

I am so thankful for the salvation that I gained through this selfless act. I am so thankful that he gave something I never could. That's amazing to me, and there would never be enough words in the world to say how thankful I am. I could never do anything that could repay him for giving me my salvation. 

Day 25

Day 25 - A picture of your favorite day.

I guess technically this was another favorite night not day, but I won't be technical. 

On this night I enjoyed the BEST concert I have ever been to, and I have been to many. I am a music lover and to see the people that you listen to on the radio, live in front of you, well it changes you. 

I have been to many country concerts, but this was my first in Contemporary Christian concerts. I was in Heaven. My bestfriend bought me two tickets to see 3 of my favorite bands in one arena... The Afters, Sanctus Real, and Casting Crowns (all of whom I have blogged about before.) There was also a young lady named Lindsey McCaul with them, and we didn't get to hear her but she did get to come out on the stage later and sing with Casting Crowns and all the other acts.

I love going to church. I love my church and my church family. I don't make it every Sunday, but I try. Going to the Civic Coliseum and seeing so many people gathered together in the name of the Lord was amazing. To watch them move to the music, and raise their hands in praise was such a moving thing! I hope they come again soon, and I hope I get to go!

Matt Hammitt of Sanctus Real with Mark Hall
and Megan Garrett of Casting Crowns.

And again!

"I'll praise you in this storm" <3 it

Everyone raising their hands in praise. So touching

Living he loved me
Dying he saved me

Buried he carried my sins far away

Rising he justified freely forever

One day he's coming, Oh glorious day....
~And what a glorious day that will be~

Josh Havens of The Afters on stage
with Casting Crowns

Lindsey McCaul

Matt Hammitt with Mark Hall again

More of the Afters with Lindsey McCaul and Megan Barrett